Once you left The Family, your relationship with close friends still in:

remained the same. Communication through phone, chat, visits is as consistent as before I left 

is strained. e-mails and visits are less frequent and the trust and intimacy has shifted. 

is practically non-existant. I send e-mails and try to stay in touch, but it is pretty one-sided. 

no longer exists in any capacity. 

I have become the dreaded Vandari they fear.