Moving On | Choose your lifeMoving On | Choose your life
Safe Passage Foundation - Support to youth raised in high demand organizations

Saturday, January 31, 2009    

Home | New Content | Statistics | Games | FAQs

Getting Through : In Remembrance

An elegy for Windy Hill

from Albatross - Saturday, May 18, 2002
accessed 2831 times

A little over 3 years ago, a 17 year old Family girl took her own life while trying to be a real missionary in the Ivory Coast Africa. She was a poet, an artist, and a gentle soul. She was also my friend. I wrote this the night I got the call from Africa

through the twilight
on the rim of this world I glide
what is in this beauty
that escapes me?
What is in this agony
That I understand?

Oh, this place,
Of heat and moisture
Of growth and decay
Of life
Of death

What beloved treasure
Have I given this ground
This dirt
Undeserving takes my offering

Oh what tragic sacrifices
This earth demands
She must yet have her virgins
And this steaming corner of the world
Provides for her hunger

With unexpected savagery
The thunderheads broke
And with the darkness
This tropical deluge


Reader's comments on this article

Add a new comment on this article

from CN
Sunday, January 30, 2005 - 13:14


I miss you Windy, you brought joy into my life again.

May you rest in peace.
(reply to this comment)

from Nancy
Wednesday, January 12, 2005 - 18:29



These words you chose are some of the most beautiful, healing words I have ever read. Only an artist could have put them together. They are fitting and eloquent.
(reply to this comment)

from ccg
Wednesday, January 12, 2005 - 18:06

ACK... whoever the fuck you are...This is cristina and Windy was my best friend. Thanks for opening up an old wound and stabbing it again. whoever you are, you're pathetic.
(reply to this comment)
From ack
Wednesday, January 12, 2005, 19:04


I'm sorry you feel that way. I'm also sorry that you find a personal attack on someone whose identity you don't even know to be the best approach. I forgive you however, and understand that you're in pain, it is common for people who are hurting to lash out irrationally, but you are not the first person to lose someone. Friends don't let friends drive drunk... and friends also don't let friends wander off to Africa under the influence of a cult. While this has undoubtledy affected you, this is not about YOU, nothing about this was in the attempt to open old wounds much less to stab at them (interesting choise of words considering recent events, let's have some decorum) so do yourself and me a favour, and get over yourself.

P.S. Take a quick look at yourself if you will. Do you truly believe that you've dregged up no memories for anyone with your own posts? I don't believe there was anything inapropriate in my post, so I will not apologize for it. Finally, have yourself a nice day.(reply to this comment

From ack
Wednesday, January 12, 2005, 19:10

P.P.S Do you think my attempt to lay Windys untimely demise at the feet of The Family in a more conclusive way, somehow warrants your hostility? Perhaps a little introspetion is in order, maybe you can sort that out and get back to me. Again, I really am sorry for the pain this has obviously caused, it was not my intent.(reply to this comment
from Silence_Restriction_Kid
Wednesday, January 12, 2005 - 17:01


Her whole family and Christina stayed with us in Northern California before she left to Africa. I know her whole family well they are one of the few good people I met from TF. I am much older then she was and I felt very responsible for what happened to her. I was pretty much out at the time and I had a very bad feeling about her and Christina going to Africa. I spoke to her about it but I never said anything to her parents. I saw her sister Laura after she got back from Africa and the details of what happened sickened me. If there was one person that deserved more from life it would be her. She was one of the kindest, most caring people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. My heart sinks every time I think of her, what a terrible terrible waste.

I miss you Windy

(reply to this comment)

from tiahogan
Wednesday, January 12, 2005 - 12:01

Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5(Agree/Disagree?)

Windy was a sweet girl. I lived with her in Tampa, Fl. The last place she lived in before going to Africa, as far as I know. I went to Russia, and she to Africa... next thing I know... she's dead... It made me so sad. I had all these pictures with her taken just a couple months earlier... now she's gone. It made me very sad to hear people say "she was just looking for attention when she overdosed on Malaria pills". I've been out in the field, she was depressed & that seems to be a "no-no" word in TF, something that doesn't exist, it's all just a made-up system word. But it isn't I almost killed myself in Russia too... the depression took over me so severely that I tried to starve myself to death. Until finally one day I snapped out of it & left for good.

Windy, you will always be in my heart. Thank you for being with us for a while, even if short.
(reply to this comment)

From ack
Wednesday, January 12, 2005, 14:49


Before she went to Africa, she spent time with her family in Fort-Worth Texas. She was bubbly and happy before she left.

I hold VS Franny, and Christina, personally responsible for steeling her resolve to go.

We tried to get her (and her best friend) to leave TF as she was getting ready to go. Little did we know what would occur. I can't help but feel that if I had tried a little harder, (or maybe stolen and ripped her tickett), something, anything, she would still be alive. She didn't want to leave at the time as she considered this her last try. (thanks a lot Franny, Christina) That sounds so final in retrospect. Ironically, at the time we were very steeped in the recreational drug scene. She never did anything but an occasional puff of weed. I contend that possibly she was just trying to get high, maybe ease the preassure for an evening, all the while unaware of the true danger of an overdose on pills. My heart still hurts at the thought of Windy, and Johnny, both victims of the lethal combination of TF and too many pills. (reply to this comment

from why_o_why
Monday, January 03, 2005 - 14:57


My heart goes out to the her sisters, she was one of four right? I know it was sometime back that it happened and I know some things were explained through "shepherds" but who really knows. I was personally affected when this happened through hearing personal reports about it and it made me upset that it seemed the home sitaution was horrible. So sad!
(reply to this comment)

From Misty
Tuesday, March 22, 2005, 10:51

Windy was one out of 11. She left behind 7 sisters and three brothers. I am one of her sisters. To think that she may still be alive if the "sheperd" in her home would have let my older sister and her husband take the homes vehicle to take her to the hospital when she stopped breathing. Instead they had to wait for a cab to come...(reply to this comment
from Meathead
Thursday, October 21, 2004 - 23:13

Ya I knew Wendy too. I lived with her family when i was younger, it was sad to read @ her and what happened.
(reply to this comment)
from Kyla
Wednesday, May 22, 2002 - 03:58

Sorry about the comment above - I went to the Creative Writing page only after I wrote it and saw the blurb. I'd only ever read the poem directly from the home page. It's very clear now, and so powerful.
(reply to this comment)
from Kyla
Wednesday, May 22, 2002 - 03:52

Another incredible poem - what drove you to write it? Can you give some background to this one as well? I love your style!
(reply to this comment)
From ack
Wednesday, January 12, 2005, 14:50

please, what poem?(reply to this comment

My Stuff

log in here
to post or update your articles


2 user/s currently online

Web Site User Directory
5047 registered users

log out of chatroom

Happy Birthday to demerit   Benz   tammysoprano  

Weekly Poll

What should the weekly poll be changed to?

 The every so often poll.

 The semi-anual poll.

 Whenever the editor gets to it poll.

 The poll you never heard about because you have never looked at previous polls which really means the polls that never got posted.

 The out dated poll.

 The who really gives a crap poll.

View Poll Results

Poll Submitted by cheeks,
September 16, 2008

See Previous Polls

Online Stores

I think, therefore I left

Check out the Official
Moving On Merchandise
. Send in your product ideas

Free Poster: 100 Reasons Why It's Great to be a Systemite

copyright © 2001 - 2009

[terms of use] [privacy policy] [disclaimer] [The Family / Children of God] [contact:] [free speech on the Internet blue ribbon] [About the Trailer Park] [Who Links Here]