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100 pills and a bottle of jack

from mike hunt - Sunday, September 03, 2006
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looking for an out.

Why do we keep trying... there is no nirvana. In the scope of things, we are insignificant as individual human being. The loss of one effects none, aside from those we are close too. Even then, life goes on and on. people will forget and the pain of loss will disappear. Is there a reason to just exist for the sake of being alive? To just be another face in this mess we call life. I`ve had all I can take. soon I think, will slip away. I just want It to be painless. This is not a cry for help. Or some bid for sympathy.I think many of us who have left, have been where I am now. Im at a loss... these pills are looking very friendly.

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from damn them to hell
Thursday, November 15, 2007 - 22:25

Kevin and all the other f***ers who abused. The heartless leadership that made sure your mother died just for wanting to leave.
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from figaro
Wednesday, April 25, 2007 - 21:57

I think about suicide a lot, the thing that has stopped me every time was the thought of my little brothers and sisters tears at my funeral. I'm lucky to have younger siblings whom I love dearly and love me the same.
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from GetReal
Wednesday, April 25, 2007 - 17:25

Rest in peace brother . I never met you but feel your pain in a way that cannot be spoken . Every time i hear of another suicide it enrages me to a level higher then the rage i will always feel. In a way I don't mind it anger = feeling ,I like to feel.I could go on for hours but why should I? its all been said before .
My condolences to his friends and family.
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from Valarie
Wednesday, April 25, 2007 - 12:54

Shit what kind of pills are they. Best way to go just go to sleep
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from FYI
Tuesday, March 27, 2007 - 23:37


Just so you know, this young man took his life some months ago. Let's keep that in mind.

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From v
Wednesday, March 28, 2007, 01:25


I'm very sorry to hear that. Deepest condolences to all those who loved him. Is there someone who knew him that could write something up to post in the memorial section?

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from Hunter S. Thompson
Sunday, September 10, 2006 - 13:46


No More Games.
No More Bombs.
No More Walking.
No More Fun.
No More Swimming.

That is 17 years past 50.
17 more than I needed or wanted.

I am always bitchy.

No Fun -- for anybody. 67.

You are getting Greedy.
Act your old age.

Relax -- This won't hurt.

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from Kitten
Sunday, September 10, 2006 - 06:02


Sometimes he thought again of suicide, and found himself longing, as though for a lost love or a treasured, vanished age, for the will, the desire, the sheer determination to end things that would have made killing himself a realistic possibility. Instead, suicide seemed as pointless and futile as everything else in life. You needed desire, the desire for death, to kill yourself. When you seemed to have no desire, no emotions or drives of any sort left - just their shadows, habits - killing oneself became as impossible as falling in love.

Iain M. Banks, "The Algebraist"

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from Cadoc
Saturday, September 09, 2006 - 17:14

The first time I thought of killing myself I was nine. Since then, Iíve contemplated when and how to do it on a regular basis.

The weird thing is, those feelings pass and I start to realise staying around is worthwhile.

Hope you pull up soon.

Cadoc Bryn
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from mia1
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 - 22:43

dude ur my hero!!!
I know what u mean
give me the gun and I'll probably shoot my fucking head off. God I hate patronizing motherfuckers who are always acting like they know best. Since coming to this site I have tried to at least be honest, and yeah not a day goes by that I don't want to die, I would do it but it cost a shitload of money that I don't have and the additional problem or better said "can't do it Im a mom" shit. Anyways I had a boyfriend by the name of mike once a long time ago....damn good fucking I'll say!!
Best advice; fuck ur brains out!! Ur life will still suck in the morning!!!

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from exister
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 - 14:35


I continue to exist because I am enamored with the vast, pointless emptiness of it all. That is why I am the exister. And there can be only one! So don't try to take my fucking nic...


P.S. Whatever you do don't OD on Tylenol. You will die three days later of liver failure, after everyone you know has had a chance to chew you out for three days.
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From loch
Wednesday, September 06, 2006, 15:03

no shit. That or you will be unlucky enough to just end up with liver issues for the rest of your days. grr.(reply to this comment
From nameless
Thursday, September 07, 2006, 10:57

Average visitor agreement is 1 out of 5(
painless... Either OD on heroin or, bite down on a double barrel sawed off 12 guage. Its too easy. like fliping a switch.... there has to be a catch. (reply to this comment
from Wait!
Tuesday, September 05, 2006 - 10:06

Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5Average visitor agreement is 5 out of 5(Agree/Disagree?)
Read this...
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From ace
Tuesday, September 05, 2006, 15:08

what a great site!(reply to this comment
From vixen
Wednesday, September 06, 2006, 15:05


You think so? I found it horribly patronising and just the sort of thing I would NOT want to read in a time of crisis.

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From vixen
Wednesday, September 06, 2006, 15:15


Eh, I'll revise that statement: Some of the secondary pages are quite good, I just didn't like the tone of the main page.

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from a friend
Monday, September 04, 2006 - 19:34


Before you do anything silly try antidepressants. They really can change your outlook and give you the tools to fight your depression. What have you got to lose?
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From Ken Maret
Monday, December 04, 2006, 05:49


I never tried anti-depressants myself, but I did try a range of other things including counseling, smoking, alcohol, drugs, screwing anything that moved etc. What ultimately helped me was hypnotherapy, which is unusual because I'm the biggest skeptic in the world and would never have even considered it had I not been really desperate. The therapists take was ďyour experience is so outside the realm of normality that I canít treat you directly, but Iíll teach you how to treat yourselfĒ. It was a relief to finally find someone who wasnít patronizing and didnít try to pigeonhole my experience. The positive results were almost instantaneous.

Mike, if you havenít tried everything there is to try then thereís still hope that whatever works best for you personally is still out there somewhere and that one day you will find it. Hang in there manÖit does eventually get better.

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Monday, September 04, 2006 - 18:22

I hear you....I too have felt this way on many an occasion.
What I think makes for interesting debate is the possibility of would make a lot of sense to this chaotic mess we call life.
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From loch
Tuesday, September 05, 2006, 14:42


If I wake up reincarnated, I'm going to scream my guts out. I do not want to have to live again.

What I have figured out is that the way to get through this life, is to have something to live for, in my case, it's my kids, and even stupid things like my art, photography.

Things always get better. Try not to dwell on it.

Muah!(reply to this comment

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