from hvn - Thursday, February 03, 2005
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Life is what we make it!
My name is Nicole I'm 37 (yes 37) and I was raised in the family, my name was Heaven. I've been out of the family for nine years now and am enjoying life and freedom. I've been reading the articles on this sight and although I don't agree with all of them, I appreciate the opportunity for all of us to speak freely! And some just need to get it off their chest after being supressed for so long.
I'd love to get in touch with anyone at all who has been in the family, because although we can make friends out here, I think no one can relate to us quite like someone else that has been raised in the family! I've been through a lot, and adjusting to the world isn't easy at all. But thank God I landed on my feet tx to my wonderful husband who has helped me get on with my life, and tx to the fact that at some point I realized that any time at all spent on winning over the past was wasted time.
If I could give a word of advice I'd say to everyone that has left the family leave it there in the past. The group doesn't deserve any more of our precious time! Unless of course it's to help some one else out. Our life is what we make it. What really helped me was to invent myself. Who do I want to be? What do I believe in? What do I like? How do I like to dress? What foods do I like? What kind of literature do I enjoy reading? And start to spend more and more time making your life what you want it to be. Listen to your heart. You can't go wrong because god is in you, you are a part of Him, He loves you and wants you to be happy and free and He has put His will in your heart. Enjoy!
I deeply regret the loss of Ricky's. I don't judge him, I just wish he'd given his new life a chance! The way he went only gives them a chance to say:"See what happens when you leave?" My heart goes out to Ricky, I wish he could have seen just how valuable he really was as a person. Although I understand his feelings of grief and anger because I myself have been there, I now see there are no victims. I think that we come here to pay karma or learn to forgive ourselves and others and so be liberated from our Karma or debt. Well, like I said I'd love to hear from anyone who wants to get in touch! My e-mail is: firstname.lastname@example.org