from cyborcosmic - Wednesday, February 08, 2006
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So selective my heart is...only open to what's weak;
So destructive my will is...still sabotaging me.
Today again I lost my will
to be all that I am,
I forgot the love that I deserve
I didn't want to use the chance.
While striving for perfection
only to be pure,
I try and forget the violence
while it bursts and turns.
I tried to follow every path,
wasting my time ego-blind,
at least it stoped the dementation
of having to follow my own mind.
I trusted in others craziness,
instead of trusting my own life,
creating inner disorder and repression,
while believing all is right.
I am afraid to break open my cage
to end my noltalgia of what was,
Instead I'm seeking domination
My status in their organization.
I am like a stranger in a wicked land,
where no one feels or communicates,
I am yearning to be free to live again,
but afraid of what my legacy creates.
With nothing left you realize
your inner was never lost,
when the game is finally over
You have to call the shots.
There wasn't an easier way
to get underneath my buried past,
just to find self recognition
I had to take off my mask.