Walking away

from venus_fly_trap - Monday, August 15, 2005
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Actions are louders than words.

I am not trying to be mean
I just know what I've seen
I know what I read
I know what I've heard
Have a hard time
Believing your word

Not enough time in a day
For a true confluent way
You don't even know me
Whom you profess to adore
You expect me to wait
While you walk out the door

What could you do now?
What could be said and how?
You said everything
Trying make things right
But good bye is the only way
To rest the demons I fight

Now with objectivity
I seek my own security
I search for peace and love
You were seeking too
Beautiful intelligent connection
What I thought I had with you

I am tired without sleep
I don't even want to eat
I can't live this way
Can't wait for you to change
Actions speak louder than words
Your life you didn't rearranged

To make an honest woman of me
To bring us into the light as "we"
Three years should have meant
So much more
But I still feel lost and alone
Your little whore

I want something real
Something solid I can feel
If you want me for real
Make due on what you've said
Don't lie to me or say what you
Think I want you to fill in my head

Until then I don't believe you
I don't want to want you
Or need you
I feel like a fool for believing
In fairy tales of forever
Giving and receiving

You see now I am very jaded
My vision of all men is tainted
To love and be loved
I believe in my own ability
But I will never give my heart
Without knowing his credibility

Yours, in my eyes is almost gone
In the battle of love you had won
I knelt in the wake of your victory
When I gave in you walked away
Left me alone after the conquest
I think you will do that again someday