| From I remember|
Saturday, October 29, 2005, 15:31
Drawing a picture about the same time I first remember being molested, age 7. I guess I thought I was drawing something I saw in so many Mo Letter covers and around the house, a girl laying on top of a boy. When I showed it to my mother she carefully explained to me that it's not possible to "make love" that way. I was confused. I guess the finer points of physical practicability had escaped me.
Just yesterday I was thinking about growing up in the 70's COG and how difficult it must be for an outsider to understand an environment where not everybody was molesting all of us all the time (there were other time-cosuming aspects of commune life and maintenance to attend to), but the groundwork had been laid so that anyone who "had the faith for it" could, and anyone who might find it distasteful would shut up and be "revolutionary."
They groomed us with the literature and the culture, so that when it shifted from looking at an explicit picture to an Uncle giving you the "passion" eyes and doing something to you, the weird feelings it gave you were trumped by the training and you knew it was supposed to be this way. You couldn't go to anyone and complain about having to memorize, witness, or be "loved up". They were part of that life.
I realize now that my anger when Berg pulled his timing switcharoo in 1986 about the end-time was partly because I realized he was just jerking us around, but while he lost credibility, whatever expectations had remained from 13 years of solid indoctrination made me mad too...because if he were right there was more of this ahead before it was over.
Dan, sorry to get all serious here. I took a look at the link and it's pretty darn funny!
If you look at his Garden of Eden bit, I think it makes it very understandable as a human myth created to explain a lot of fundamental questions.
Eating from the tree of life is why whe have this mind that makes it so good but so painful to be human.
Failing to eat from the tree of life before getting evicted is why we die. Yahweh couldn't have a bunch of smartasses living forever and getting more knowledgeable every day. The transmission of knowledge would still happen generationally, but inevitably its progress would be slowed because individuals can't (yet) transmit forward when they die everything you learn. To be passed on, it must be implemented or recorded for others' use before we return to the dust.
Gender roles are explained too when he tells each of Adam (work, sweat of your brow) and Eve (painful childbirth, your desire shall be for your husband) how they are now punished.
The puzzle of evil finds a "personifying" (or faunifying?) container in the serpent.(reply to this comment)