from cic - Tuesday, January 03, 2006
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Hi to all of you who like me have survived The Family.......
My name is Michael.
I am a former involuntary member of The Family, that is I was born into the group, its lifestyle, doctrine, and abuse.
For the first decade of my life in The Family, The Family was my life and my truth. I didn't comprehend that there was a whole other, different world out here.
I suspected something wasn't right in my world ever since I can remember and I intuitvely but blindly struggled with these feelings.
When I was about 10 years old, I began to realise and discover a whole other world outside The Family. There was something that The Family was trying to hide and I could see and understand this.
In my heart I sincerely and dearly hoped that it was a better, safer place in which to grow up. I imagined simple things like "School", "A job", "Friends", but never understood what they meant. I remember laying in bed dreaming of my earliest ambitions which was to get a job pumping gas at a gas station whilst going to school. It seemed so simple then.....
Trying to realise my modest dreams and ambitions was harder than I could have ever dreamed. I had to fight through punishments and retraining for 5 years - My own private purgatory right at the doorsteps of hell. The violence and abuse which was a cornerstone of my daily existence in The Family ever since I can remember increased exponentially.
Miraculously, they let me leave The Family. Deeming me an incorrigible bad apple, a CRO (Continental Roving Overseer) visited me and tried to tame my restless hurting soul. Achieving no effect - they let me leave.
I left The Family, entering a world I had never known alone at 15. I was angry, in pain, bitter, confused and alone. I felt like an alien from Mars.
I soon found out that the hardest times of my life were still in front of me as I slowly discovered about the realties of life in this world and about life in The Family.
I learned about the basic human and child rights that are legally accorded to all humans in human society, and I began to awaken to the reality of the horrible, wrong and illegal practices that constituted my life in The Family.
I have spent the last 13 years of my freedom dealing with the realisations, effects and disadvantages that are a direct result of my life in The Family.
Having been abused emotionally, sexually and physically for most of my life and lacking some of the most basic educational foundations, I have had my hands full dealing with the emotional, psychological and physically scars of a life growing up in The Family.
My memories will never leave me - I won't let them - they are a precious part of what is me.
I am delighted and encouraged at finding this meeting place of other people like me.
I am glad that at last I am truly not alone