from afflick - Saturday, January 15, 2005
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I couldn't get on the website a few hours back and wonder why. Was it because of all the extra activity as curioius readers of the New York Times check us out? Or was it something more?
When I couldn't log on despite repeated efforts, I realized yet again how important this outlet is for me, how if I just stop in to read other posts during my daily surfing activies, it is a comfort to know that Movingon is around when I need it. It is a comfort to know you all are here.
A few moments ago, a friend of mine who also used to be in The Family stopped by the house to visit me. Almost a week earlier, I called to tell her the news about Ricky and then gave her time to process it all. When she stopped by there were tears, we looked at the newspaper articles and talked about them, I pulled out some pictures I had taken with Ricky in Russia many years ago.
It was a great relief to find someone else to talk to about how I felt: how every song on the radio reminds me of Ricky or what happened, how I can be angry and sad and hopeful all at the same time. Because she felt the same.
I realize that we all react differently to the events in our lives and not everyone is going to undertake the same process I have. But thanks for being there, here, online when I need you.
And, BTW, what really happened during that time the website was down, Jules?