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Getting On : Faith
What happened to my faith | from redscare - Friday, November 08, 2002
accessed 1342 times What has happened to my faith now that i have left? Lets face it....organized religion sucks assss..... it always becomes an enterprise. Who says there need to be rules in your religion? Your faith is something that is between you and God. No one should be left to tell you if you aren't living a certain way then you are "out of it".
I left 3yrs ago when i was 17. I was not angry or bitter i just wanted my freedom and independace. At first I was so caught in my new job and making so much money that i gave very little thought to religion or faith.
I had it all, a good job, money, friends, i was doing drugs and partying 5 out of 7 nights a week and still staying on top.
After awhile there were times when i felt very lonely inside. Not in the sense of I had no friends but it was a hollow feeling. When i would stop to analyze this feeling i realized those where the times i felt i was slipping away from God. But i could still feel his presence in my life
i discovered how wrong organized religion is. It interferes with your personal faith and ties to God. I have since found and made peace with myself and God. I am a firm believer in Him and i feel he is watching over me.
What i learned from my time out and hope you can too is that just because you leave the cult does not mean you need to leave God there too.
He does care and I have felt his presents in my everyday life. I'm going to University and working towards a neuroscience degree. Dispite my busy load i make it a point to pray b4 i go to sleep and in the morning. I try to read my bible or something devotional everyday. This somehow makes life seem easier. |
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Reader's comments on this article Add a new comment on this article |  from thepersoniamnow
Saturday, November 09, 2002 - 14:21
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I believe in god after an orgasm...thats about as deep as it gets for me.
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| | | | | | | from JohnnieWalker
Saturday, November 09, 2002 - 12:43
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I've thought out the subject of God long and hard. After leaving the Family, I pored over every single belief I had while in the Family, asking myself what I really believed and why I believed it -- what was it I basing my belief on.
Here's what I've consolidated so far: I believe in God because the belief in a higher power and the subsequent rules governing His/Her creation make me a better person. Were I to discard that belief, I can state for a fact that I would not hold the same moral standards I now do.
If that is an admission of weakness, so be it.
I'll be honest, though, and say that atheism is extremely appealing to me at the moment, because it's so simple. Everything can be explained with one sweeping statment: There is no God.
When one is an atheist, there is no need to try to "understand the mind of God" when something goes wrong. There is no need to admit that one is not in complete control of his or her own life. There is no need to analyse apparent contradictions. Since there is no God, there are no rules and everything either happens by chance or as a direct result of our own actions.
The only reason I do not embrace atheism at the moment is because it is, in my opinion, too closed minded. It leaves no room for anything extraphysical. It denotes, in effect, that people who have had very real supernatural experiences (i.e. NDEs, encounters with angels/Jesus, miraculous healing, etc.) are insane.
This said, I do not look down on people who are atheists or agnostics nor do I frown upon their choice of beliefs or lack of them. I'm am merely stating the reasons why I personally am not ready to declare myself an atheist and why I still adhere to my beliefs in God.
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|  From Hanna_Black
Saturday, November 09, 2002, 13:09
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I fully agree with you on that one, JW, especially about atheism denying supernatural happenings. I was not sure for a while if I did or want to believe in a god. I have seen so many things happen in my life that make me feel like there is a God. Of course the question of "why did God let bad things happen to me" will always be there.
On the other hand, if I were to know when or why God intervenes or doesn't, I would be God or godlike. As far as I understand it, God gave everyone a choice to do evil or good. If he were to jump in and prevent anything bad that ever happened on earth, there would be no balance, and no one would see results of their choices. Although bad things did happen in my life, for which I do not know the reason, I still feel like a God protected me at other times from worse things. the thing I do not believe in is that the Family is God's chosen people and God's highest will.
My conclusion for my own self was this:
I will continue to believe in God, believe I am his child and that he loves me. when I die and found out there was no God all along, I won't have lost anything, but just lived life slightly deluded, thinking soemone "up there" cared. The other option being that I die one day and find there was a God, then he will know that at least I tried to love him and my neighbour.
As far as thelogical questions, I don't care too much for them as I am not an authority on the subject, and I think it is hard to understand the "mind of God". So, I will continue to be what the Family might call a "lukewarm" christian, and if God judges me for it some day, so be it. At least that is what I wanna believe for now.
I think some people want to find their own personal God, and others get along great without! My opinion anyhow. (reply to this comment) |
| | | | | From God
Saturday, November 09, 2002, 17:37
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Hannah, lighten up hon, I can honestly tell you that I don't give two shits wether you believe in me or not. I don't love you, or any other earthling on this site. You aren't some beautiful unique flower in my eyes, in fact, I didn't even know you existed until I read this post. I'm too busy smiting innocent people to notice you.
Just go about life as YOU see fit. & just basically do whatever the hell damn crap you want. The only thing that gets anyone a ticket to eternal damnation around here is what you earthlings call paedophilia. But I figured out what to do with them, I just send 'em over to my son's place for 6months of non-stop LJ sessions. It not as messy as a full frontal labotamy.(reply to this comment) |
| | | | | from porceleindoll
Friday, November 08, 2002 - 20:42
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I haven't finished forming my beliefs on God and His presence in my life, or His presence period. While I can't completely discard the theory of God, after years and years of believing in Him, it is difficult to say, "There is no God..." Yet I cannot say there is undeniably a God Who cares for you and is there for you.
I think that religion and God are like a security blanket for most people, something to fall back on, or something that forces them to bring their own powers into focus.
Most people lack the self-confidence that they are strong enough to make it through hard times on their own, so putting their 'faith' on an outside force that they believe is stronger than themselves gives them the confidence to face life and all that comes their way.
I know it's not clear, it's something I'm slowly working through myself.
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| from Lance
Friday, November 08, 2002 - 18:29
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Nice testimony! Maybe you should put it in the next "Hope of The Future".
(Insert sardonic laughter here)
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| from Good for you
Friday, November 08, 2002 - 15:12
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That's the spirit!
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