from cyborcosmic - Wednesday, December 04, 2002
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Inside my mind and soul
Inside my mind :
a suppressed scream
Inside my soul:
desire and hurt intertwined
Outside I only show you.
Inside I really know you.
you to believe the false signals I fake.
''The body never lies''
but it has learned to.
My expectation of you was misinformed
I was deceiving myself by pretending you cared
Even though I knew you were just
another empty promise I had made to myself,
I was still holding on to your words:
" I care about you ."
Throughout my past
I felt aversion, guilt and terrible
It''s a different feeling than love or
I silenced my screams with your name
I hid my sadness behind the scenes,
So that you wouldn''t have to worry
So that you wouldn''t have to know
So that you wouldn''t have to care
About what it is I feel inside.
Now all these emotions surrounding you
Are forever lost
And you''ll never know why they existed
Within me, underneath me,
Don''t tell me what happened,
I''m still smiling through my pain.