from Anthony - Tuesday, May 20, 2003
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Doesn’t it feel good to be free of this mentality, which is expressed in the following prayer request? Sure, some things out here in the “system” really do suck, but it sure beats living in a mind-numbing cult.
NOTE: I didn’t bother to correct the grammatical errors. Again, this is from the Family Youth Group.
recently, the Lord used a newcomer to the Family to point out to me
that maybe I should ask for prayer for my situation. I asked the Lord
about it & He said, not only should I ask for prayer, but I should also
explain (or "confess") a bit how I got myself into that situation, as a
warning to those of you (especially younger ones) who might be tempted
to do what I did.
The gist of the message I have for those is in the attachment, I just
wanted to say a few words about the actual circumstance I'm asking for
prayer about. About 10 years ago, my former mate & I had decided to
leave what was the DO Family back then & became TS (later FM), with the
intention of trying to get our act together as a couple, or family. We
had other motivations, too, as we were a bit disappointed by
experiences with people we had been living with, and I wanted to play
music more instead of the much less glorious & much more humiliating
other forms of outreach. (I think this might sound familiar to some...)
Well, long story short: We wound up separated & in debt, my wife out of
the Family, with most of the kids, and me singing "If I only had" &
unable to return to CM status because of the debt.
The good part about it is that I've learned a lot of "most precious
lessons from deep, dark experiences" & am bringing along a new
disciple, but in order to really serve the Lord in the highest possible
capacity, we would like to ask you for prayer for our debt situation,
and that the Lord might do a miracle to free me from all other legal
responsibilities in order for us to become CM.
Thanks so much. If you're interested in any more details, read the
attachment &/or feel free to contact us, but as this is going out to a
lot of people, we want to keep the gist of this short. We love you &
are proud of being a member of this Family, today more than ever.
Lots of love in our wonderful Lover, and our King & Queen, David
Blossom, Sparkle & Lara (WG 796)
P.S.: Here are excerpts of things we got from the Lord on this:
" I'm using this, your financial situation to come forth before the
Family and send this humbling message out & humbly present your prayer
request. This will be the ultimate usefulness for Me of the lesson in
the way & path you have chosen, to demonstrate to all My children that
this apparently glorious & exalting road only leads to greater
humiliation. Let them know they have it better if they stick & not go
snooping around in the System. Let them know that no matter how boring
life in the Family can sometimes seem, no matter how tempting &
enticing the System may look at times, they're still a heaven of a lot
better off if they stay close to Me & don't move from My side. Show
them the wounds from the wolves' teeth in your flanks & tell them the
tale of their scary howls & assaults! Not that they would ever admit
that they're scared, but at least it will confirm to them that the
still small voice of caution in them that has prevented them from
leaving so far, was My voice of Truth, after all.
...You have just come out of Egypt, and have had a close look at the
decadence, the rottenness within, which is hidden from view behind the
shiny facade. Tell them what's there, that if you live in the System,
you wind up in debt, that's just the way it goes, unless you resist the
Devil's temptation to live on borrowed money & time... Tell them. Tell
them that you were told, and you didn't believe it, but now you found
out first hand.
Tell them that it's true, that the System WILL enslave them, if they
can only get a chance. It may look nice, but don't be deceived! It only
looks nice on the surface & is all rotten with poison within. Their
rulers are wicked. Sure, it has it's enticing, seeming advantages, like
greater independence & so-called freedom. Well, you will have to pay
for that freedom by slaving away at some job for a good amount of the week..."
Here's the attachment he mentions:
Your Freedom Is At Stake (From A Sheep Who’s Shedding His Wolf’s Clothing) by Dave Blossom
I would like to write a little note about myself & my situation (sorry that – as usual – it has turned out not-so-little), as through my communications via email on various yahoogroups, etc., some people may have started to wonder, “Who’s that dweeb, anywayz?” Rumors are quick to spread, and since I sometimes don’t shy back from using what people call ‘no uncertain terms’ to state my case, I just want to give you a little background to that ‘case’, just in case any of you might have felt like, “Who does the dude think he is to preach at us, anyway? – He’s not even CM!”
I promise, after this communication I’ll be a lot quieter, laid back & silent, but the Lord is putting it on my heart to issue this warning. (I can hear some of you: “Hope he’ll keep that promise!”)
To give you a little background: I joined the Family in 1980 at the age of 17, went to Latin America pretty soon after that, returned to Europe to work in the beginnings of the former East Bloc work in the mid 80s with my Uruguayan wife, with whom I’ve had 5 children, and wound up in East Germany in 1990. During that time, our whole area had been put on Babes’ status by a leader who is not in the Family anymore. The team we were working with* seemed more interested in finances than souls, and I had a burning desire to use more the musical talent the Lord blessed me with, which I scarcely had a chance to in the situation I was in. So, we decided to become TSers & settled for a life which included System school for our kids, along with all the gimmicks peer pressure in the System brings: Gameboys, Nintendo, Barbies, & lots of System music. For us grown-ups it meant, buying furniture, decent cars, bills, debts. (*most of which have left the F.)
When the New Wine started coming out, I slowly started coming back to life again, while my wife chose to remain in the materialistic state our lives had gotten into. When we separated, she did not continue tithing & pretty much insisted on keeping the children in the ways of the world.
During the first year of our separation, she failed to pay her rent, which wound up a handsome debt I’m now liable for. This debt prevents me from becoming CM with my new mate Sparkle who I won to the Lord & the Family & our daughter Lara. What I want to tell young Family people is: Don’t make the same mistakes I did!
I’m like a fighter, who for lack of wisdom & carefulness has fallen into one of the Enemy’s traps, & so I’m bound here to this trap, stuck in my debts, & I’m desperately crying out to you, “Watch out for this trap! – Don’t make the same mistakes I did! Cling to the Word for dear life! Don’t eyeball or play footsie with the System! Your FREEDOM is at stake!”
I’m not claiming to be, do, or know anything more than any of you out there. I’m in the minor league, while most of you are playing in the Major. And yet, because of my particular situation, which has “blessed” me with a greater desperation than some, I can see things from an angle, which some of you might consider “the other side of the fence”, & I’m here to tell you right now: The grass really only looks greener! But it tastes a lot more bitter. In fact, I think they’re manipulating it with chemicals to make it look greener, but it tastes like sh...rimps. – You know, unclean....seafood...& stuff.
You don’t have to believe me. But that’s all I wanted to say.
One of the tricks the Enemy pulls on a lot of us is instilling a respect & certain awe for Systemites, making us think that they are incredibly smart, intelligent, intellectual, blah blah blah...
Well, I’ve lived among them for the past 12 years, played my heart out for them during an average of 120 gigs per year, in pubs, culture clubs, churches, etc., in 3 neighboring countries, and my awe for them has shrunk to a state short of disdain. The word “intellectuals” by now is ALWAYS accompanied by “pseudo”, and even those are a small minority of maximally 3%. There are 2% in these countries you might consider sheepy, and the rest of the 95%...no offense, but I’ve wrapped it up in songs of mine entitled “Another Night In Zombie Town” or “Total Stupor”.
“The entrance of Thy Word giveth light, it giveth understanding unto the simple.” Never underestimate that understanding that comes from the Word. It beats everything they’ve got by lengths!
I’m one formerly stray sheep who has carried away many scars & wounds from ravenous attacks of the wolves, whose life was miraculously spared by the Shepherd’s merciful intervention.
What’s worse, because the Wolf, the Enemy, had tricked me & my former mate into thinking that “public education’s really not all that bad”, all my little lambs are currently being indoctrinated by the stooges of Moloch - & there’s only so much I can do to try to spare them from the worst – the burning by fire of a potential life of usefulness for the Lord. Would I choose a different path if I could turn back time? You bet I would!
Like many others I imagine to have done what some of you may be tempted to do right now: I once set out with the noble intentions of, “I’m gonna show them what I’m made of & they’re gonna hear about it!” I was having big plans to use my musical talents to make it ‘big’ & maybe be instrumental in helping the Family become the promised ‘financial power’...
Well, the Lord has cared for us, but ‘survival’ is the name of the game out here & ‘merely existing’ a more appropriate description than ‘living life to the full’, which I had intended.
Instead of returning victoriously, I’m shivering & shaking, still paying the consequences of my deviancies & my drifting off, enriched only in the confirmation of what the wiser among you already know if you cling to the Word.
And if you have any doubts about it: Trust me, it’s true. The world REALLY is as bad as the Shepherd says it is, & the fold is really as good. Spare yourself the pain I went through: appreciate it!