Moving On - Children of the Children of God

I know this is very un-Mercy thing to do but I'm deleting all my articles from the site. I don't mind criticism, in fact I appreciate it. But the truth of the matter is I don't write poetry just for the sake of writing poetry. It's an outlet for my emotions and pain. All the things I wrote about have happened to me, I suppose I shouldn't have shared them in a public forum. Private things should stay private. I sometimes feel that some of the people on this site insult just for the sake of insulting. It sometimes feels as though they take pleasure in other people's pain. And I suppose I don't need to put up "poetry" that is important to me to get that. They do it anyway.

If people think that I am taking criticism or myself too seriously, you need to just step back and try to imagine what I might have gone through to be reacting this way. People have said all sorts of insulting things about my appearance and I haven't even responded to them. But I shouldn't have put the things in my head up for public redicule. My mistake. I'm rectifying it.

As for me removing the article with my pictures, I feel that I have made my point, and that it is completely unecessary to have an entire article devoted to pictures of me. They are still in the website user directory.

I don't think I'll be putting any more articles up. It seems it is safer to watch from a distance. Maybe someday there will be a little more peace and harmony on this site. Until then, I will not be an active participant in the discord.

And now I feel I have taken up entirely too much space to say what I've wanted. I hope anyone who is uninterested in me has not wasted their time reading this article.

Take care all.

Peace, out. --Mercy

Ps. I am still in the running for the Alf Awards! Vote for me!

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from bobo
Tuesday, December 31, 2002 - 01:43
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Mercy, take heart.

There's a lot of frustrated people out there.

Just think 70 have read your article and only 4 have responded, positively, so that says a lot.

Have a good day/night!

Bobo.
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from xhrisl
Tuesday, December 31, 2002 - 01:34
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Small people belittle others---often times for the sad reason that it is the only manner in which they know how to uplift themselves. Don't be disheartened, your friends will care about you thru thick and thin...and the rest of the world can just go f**k themselves.
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from porceleindoll
Monday, December 30, 2002 - 19:01
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Sorry Mercy to see you go under these conditions. It's too bad that the same sort of criticism present amongst our peers while we were in the Family is still here and that some are in fear of putting out their true opinions or matters close to them because others pick it apart over grammar or personal dislike.

It would be nice to move on to a more mature stance of acceptance of others rather than critical picking apart of details or some morbid need to make disparaging remarks over people's attempts at giving a peek into our hearts. Some of the same reasons you listed above have kept me from posting things as well and have kept me away from this site at times.
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from Alf
Monday, December 30, 2002 - 12:57
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I feel your pain. Especially when i read your poetry. I think Sunny may just pip you for the award, but who knows?
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