Boredom

from Joe H - Friday, December 13, 2002
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Couldn't sleep one night and started reflecting on how much I hate living in one place for so long.

Lying in a bed I know too well
Trying to sleep and just ignore the smell
Of all the things that haunt me in the day
Until at night they all come out and play
They all have made their place within my mind
But of them, familiar boredom's all I find
When my surroundings never seem to change
To know my world this well can seem so strange
Within my mind is always deja vu
I don't know if I'm seeking something new
Or have I just too much imagination?
Till images that grow in contemplation
Become more real and yet they never seem
More tangible than any in my dreams
And sometimes deep inside there is the thought
That once I knew it and I just forgot
Is it my fault my paradise is lost?
Does lonely freedom carry it's own cost?

No, I think heaven is right here and now
'Cause I've always looked back and wondered how
I didn't see the beauty 'till it went
And all the joy and happiness were spent
It's possible to live within the past
And long for anything to take you back
Or wait for better days to come along
Like Christians singing their celestial songs
But if to you our world is just a bore
Your foolish heart will always long for more
And bliss itself will fail to give you joy
Just like a child who has too many toys
Yet always wants another and he gets
More junk and piles up enormous debts
His happiness he borrows loan by loan
He has no joy or peace to call his own
So much surrounds the emptiness within
That's why the love of money is a sin
For it distracts the mind from greater things
So tragic, the insanity it brings

So know this: heaven is a state of mind
And the only savior you will ever find
Is you