I Can't Just Move On As If nothing Ever Happenned

from Coolfire - Saturday, August 13, 2005
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Without trying to expose the Evil that still lurks inside TF

COOLFIRE

I recently left Bergs Ghost, Maria and Peter's EVIL kingdom of lies and darkness,now I'm writing and posting articles on my site: http://www.angelfire.com/music6/coolfire/A_truth/

My heart goes out to the young people out there that are trying to get their voice heard and find peace in their lives. I am diametrically opposed to the abuses in The Family and have vocally spoken out in letters to Peter and Maria and their Secretary, I also addressed Berg's GHOST himself with a challenge, and the guy who calls himself Jesus, that speaks through Carol Lloyd.

ALL I got to say is whatever you go for, do it with all your heart and whatever the Family or anyone says, do not give up. Rick's death woke me up, when I saw how arocious the reaction of his mother, saying she had nothnig to do with it whatsoever and passing the buck to Ricky's friends. I know one of those friends was Sarafina, so I can imagine how she felt hearing that, as she was one of the closest, if not the closest and most understanding friend he had. I cannot imagine what Elixia felt and went through and is still going through, but I want to express my sincere condolences to her, and regret that she could not find any comfort or sympathy with Rick's mother. The young people spoke out on My Conclusion com becasue they were coerced to. They were told that because Maria and Peter were getting attacked by the "enemy" they were also under attack. They were led to beleive that the articles coming out about Ricky's death and abuses in TF were a direct attack on their faith. This is what Peter and MAria told them.They didnt care about the FGAs and if they had anything to say, they were just interested in stirring up the SGAs and YAs,to defend TF and their faith when what they were really doing is brainwashing them to speak out so they(Peter and Maria) can have a wall to hide behind.Peter and Maria are good at passing the buck and in this case they put the Family young people out in front of them so they could take the brunt of things, while they hide behind in their WS and keep pulling the strings. I never abused my kids and always tried toprotect them from abuse by keeping them away from the situations I knew had crazy leaders. I wrote and reported things, but nothing ever happenned to change it. Its not that no one tried to change things. A lot of people did try but got put down, villanized, demonized, kicked out, so I did my best to keep my kids away from those large combo situations where I knew certain leaders were that I didnt like and they didnt like me around much either. I was never in WS, never wanted to be. I stood up against certain leaders and got the axe many times. It didnt bother me as long as I knew I was standing up for the truth. I knew they would fall eventually and they did. I dont want a medal,or praise or anything. I am not trying to say I was all that innocent, becasue I know I could have spoken up more. But no one knew just how wide spread the abuse was, becasue they did not share that kind of information with TF. They put a lid on everything and only gave limited info, old news.
I did some digging and found out about the Phillippine thing where Berg ordered and FFer to tell a general she was FFing to shoot a high ranking official so that could start a war, and Berg woudl take over the Philippines and run it as a Christian country. That in itself shows the perverted mind, the criminal mind behind the abuse. This mentality still lives on in Maria and Peter, who , by the way never ever lived the life of a disciple like everyone else, and were always in leadership talking the talk from day one.
This shows they were not concerned about the sheep, they were only concerned with consolodating power. Maria knew Berg would die someday. He was old and she was still young so she was all for any prophecy that would exalt her as taking over when he was gone. She played the role, and bided out her time, she danced to the music and now she will have to pay the fiddler. Peter and Maria have lost more credibility than they could ever hope to gain back, that is why they are still hiding and running and will not come out on public, for fear of prosecution. Peter and MAria are wishing persecution on TF with all the "prophecies" that they spread, to "prove" the prophecies. They are pushing the persecution and instigating it themselves with their own failure to answer questions, and refusal to give an appropriate apology. I sent them questions that no one else asked, and they had the arrogance to send back and answer that they already answered those questions. I never saw it. Where? They said I was confused becasue of what I read on the Moving On org. I wrote back and said I was confused when I read their indifferent reaction to Ricky's death.How could parents who loved their son turn against him like that and drive him to do what he did? I asked them why Gabe and Amy even had to call Ricky that day. WHat were they thinking? They must have at least checked in and got permission before they did, unless the whole thing was planned. How did Angela find out? Gabe and Amy called her afterwards and told her that Ricky would be happy to see her. This is what caused Angela to call Ricky. It wasnt just a coincidence that she called Ricky right after GAbe and Amy did. See how they try to twist things and side step any resposibility?
JUst like NIxon supposedly had no knowledge of what his men were doing in Watergate. The top always knows what is goingon and is always planning ahead to stay steps ahead of everyone else, planning and conniving. Then they try to raly the Family young people around them for protection, accuse
ex member young people for poisoning Ricky's mind, when they were the ones who poisoned his mind and drove him crazy like they drove Merry crazy. Maybe I am speculating because I have no proof I was not htere, but if you ask me the whole thing sounds fishy and smelly. So that is why, folks I am posting things on my site. If you have any article you want more people to read I wold gladly post the link on my site. Many of you want FGAs to stay away and leave you alone, and thats fine. This message is not for you. There apparently are some out there who don't feel that way and do want to try to communicate, I know , because I have communicated with them. These are the ones I am addressing. I know what it is like to grow up without a father and hardly seeing my mother. I rebelled against the older generation, and every ting they stood for. Maybe if you had been born in that generation you would have too. I suffered under the abusive system that made me get a draft card and forced the kids to go to Vietnam to fight their goddamned war for them, I saw many of my friends get killed and their bodies mutilated by the viet cong. The VC would send the pictures to their parents of their mulilated bodies. A frend of mine went crazy when he saw the picture of his brothers mutilated body
joined the Marines and wanted to go to Viet Nam to"kill those mother fuckers" he said. I never heard from him again.
This is the system I grew up in. In those days America was not land of opportunity as it is now. That was a dream. It was horror. That is why many joined TF in those days to escape the tortures and abuse of the system's War Machine.
It was compulsory, you hit 18 and you were gone. Viet nam was hell.I lived everyday in fear, knowing not what would happen to me, my mother lived in fear of losing me,
many were lost and never lived to see another day. This was the "comfortable world" I grew up in. Our fates were already sealed by the government from the day we were born, there
was no choice, we could not choose, and the parents did not have any power to do anything about it. That is why in those days the COG looked a whole lot better than Viet nam and the only other way to fight the system in those days was to join Guys like Jerry Rueben, or the Black Panthers, but I couldnt join them as I wasnt black, you couldnt even walk down a black neighbor hood without a gun. So I was taken from my family and shipped out, my friends were taken from their families and loved ones and shipped out. So many were thankful for the peace we found in the COG and dedication in THOSE days. Sad to say, it degenerated into what it is today. The same reasons I had for joining then just dont even exist anymore. I am not trying to be antagonistic, or offensive. If anyone is not interested in things I write no one is forcing them to read it. I dont read things I am not interested in anyway, its a waste of time. If you are not interested and read anyway and spend time posting comments
opposing it, that is your choice how you want to spend your time, its your right. Im not trying to create a dialogue between FGAs and SGAs. Just comunicate.You guys are adults and can work out your own solutions , you dont need our help. There are very few FGAs I communicate with anyway. I would rather go out hunting, fishing, camping. Half my kids are out of TF. One is a computer technician, another is a mechanic who builds turbo cars, another is a martial arts teacher, another is a hunter another a bike mechanic, all doing cool things they like to do. So whatever. Thats all I got to say. I dont feel a need to be accepted by anyone or any certain generation even my own. Not all the FGAs in TF allowed abuse, many stood up against it, and payed the price of persecution within TF, me included. The ones who did not stand up against the abuse compromised and were afraid to say anything out of fear of losing their position. I lost my position mnay times for speaking up and putting my foot down. I am not trying to get anyones approval of what I do, neither should you.Acceptance has nothing to do with me getting on with my life and helping my kids get on with theirs, be there for them,and thats what I want to do, help my kids and live for them, and my do what I can to help them if they want my help.I dont see any crime in that. When you talk about crimes comitted and accuse people of this or that you had better know what you are talking about and not just label people and assume that al the FGAs were guilty of crimes. Thats prejudice.
I can't speak and don't speak for any other FGAs. I dont work inside the FGA "camp" I am on the outside so its all the same to me age means nothing. In TF there are many FGAs that have diseases that are killing them. Many SGAs, YAs, Teens, Jetts and kids have the same diseases, its not only the "old " people. Disease knows no generations, fear also.
The only distinction between generations is in the mind, how you decide you are going to thnik about it and what opinions you have formed yourself. That is where the distinction is.
So thats all I had to say.

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Sincerely, Coolfire